I’ve been praying for love lately…not to be loved. I’ve been asking for help to simply love. I know the Source of love because that Source is who showed me love in the first place. There are folks I love, and there are others that I find it hard to love. I sense that God is calling us to love with intentionality (sounds noble but perhaps involves real work).
And then I reflect on my expectations for how I am to love.
Am I confused about the meaning of this loving with a cheap, easy version twisted up out there? Do I sense it must be married to warm fuzzies? Why do we always want to include feelings?
Am I open to the kind of love that excludes feelings? Am I willing to participate in a love that has nothing to do with making me happy?
This love that is a mystery but involves action and caring and commitment…well it seems illusive, too holy for me maybe. I’m feeling like shutting the book, and then I see that Paul is praying for the church….for me and…for you.
When I think of all this, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father, the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth. I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Ephesians 3:14-19 (NLT)
I go to my knees, too. I will listen. I will be made complete. I will have roots.
And hope rises. Amen.