I’ve sat down to this computer so many times to write a post on faith the last few days, and you can see what I’ve posted. A whole lot of nothing. Zip. None. Zero. Do you ever feel like that? I’ve got nothing.
Have you ever been on your knees trying to pray, and you think: I’ve got nothing? Yeah. That’s me. Nothing to say. Nothing to offer. Nothing.
Feelings are overrated after all, and maybe that’s what I’m trying to manufacture which is really just silly.
If you’re like me and have a numb faith sometimes, it’s okay.
If you feel lost, or confused, or numbed up, it’s okay. God is still here. God is still loving. God is still wanting you. God is still. God is. God.
Even as I fumbled through the Lord’s Prayer this morning, I knew that all shall be well. Whether life goes the way I think it should or whether or not I feel madly in love with God or not, all shall be well. Whether the sun even rises tomorrow morning, all shall be well. God is with me. God is with us.
I can trust. I can know. I can be.
For God is Love. God already knows about my pitiful faith and my numbed up heart (and yours!) God is.
And surely if this is true, God can show me how to love well and what it means to be faithful. And surely, this is part of faith formation and the journey of becoming like Christ.
Maybe being in a place of “I’ve got nothing” is just where to be this day, this moment. Maybe this is something after all.
May God bless our nothingness and our weakness into greatness that only comes from God. Amen.
“Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.” 2 Cor. 12:9 (NLT)